8/26/12
I just got done reading Joshua chapter 4. The Lord had commanded Joshua to instruct 12 men (one from each tribe) to bring 12 stones. These stones would be a memorial to what the Lord had done. Just like when He had parted the Red Sea, the Lord had dried up the Jordan so that they could ge through. When asked they were to inform their children of what the 12 stones were for. What an awesome memorial. What an awesome thing the Lord had done for them!
This got me to go back to how the Lord had saved me. I want to share my story. Granted, you will get the short version as it can go on and on. Lol! Having said that it is still powerful.
When I was growing up, I always felt that there was something wrong with me. I would lose my anger real quickly, for no apparent reason. I would become depressed. I would have hissy fits. All of this began real early for me. I would say around 4-5 was this how I was feeling. My parents did all they could for me in terms of disciplining me.
They were forced to get me help when I was 12 after I tried to kill myself. Things got worse after my grandmother died. I cussed at God. Where was He? Where was the God that I had learned about from my parents? (I should note that my parents told me about Jesus but it was never deep nor did we ever attend church. I attended one VBS and that was the extent of it). I ate and ate. I hurt myself physcially from scratching myself. Things did not get better in college.
I continued to gain weignt ( I still, sadly have this issue, which I have gotten to my highest weight. Highest weight that was notated: 364. Although, I'm certain it is now higher). On the positive side, the Lord had tooken away my depression and suicidal thoughts. Yet, I was still unsaved. I went out and drank and smoke (once. I through up and gave up that mess). The Lord had been reaching out to me. I didn't know it at that time but He was.
My sister told me about the Left Behind books. I didn't do anything about them at the time. I had no interest in them. Rather, I was reading suspense, romantic comedies at that time. Heck, I even read the Davinci Code. Saved or not, I didn't agree with that book at all.
Anyways, I had walked into a Fry's and some guy handed me a track. I was walking on my campus and another person handed me the same track. One night, I placed a phone call for a ride to my sister and saw a picture of Jesus. I took them home. I drew closer after the Tim LaHaye and Jerry Jenkins (authors of Left Behind) interview in which I watched. They were countering (& rightfully so) the movie Revelations that NBC was airing (that thing was so untrue). They talked about the mercy of God and how that He was showing mercy by waiting. Each day the rapture didn't take place was a sign of God wanting to get every last one in that would come in. I was convinced at this point that the Lord had wanted me.
It was not until about 2 years later, that I became born again. I quit the drinking. I found a church home. Now, the Lord has called me to teach His Word. I'm a missionary at my church and feel that the Lord is leading me into newer territory and to a deeper relationship with Him. I'm so thankful to Him. He is so amazing!
We should always remember how the Lord has tooken us out of the bad and has resuscitated us successfully. We have been redeemed by the blood of Christ!!! Praise Jesus!!! That is my testimony! Church remember your testimony!!!
Your Sister in Christ,
Mary
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