I have been struggling w/ my body image for awhile. It seems to have increased w/ the weight loss. The Word of God let's me know that I'm fearfully & wonderfully made. "I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well," Psalm 139:14 KJV. I love this scripture, but I still struggle. My body seems to be blah. I'm disgusted w/ the shape of it . I try to tell myself that it will be better when I get the skin removal surgery. Yet, I can't help but feel that I will be disappointed no matter what.
No matter what, societal pressures do not help. I try to ignore what society values. However, I look around & see all these skinny, beautiful blondes. Even though I'm a size 12 & no longer 380lbs, I still fill fat. Beauty is dictated by society, but also by ourselves. The truth is that I have to accept my body & my image. If I was supposed to be something else, God would have made me something else. Prayerfully, this self loathing will go away.
Prayers for a Sister.
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