It's taken awhile for me to blog. I apologize for that. I was out of town for three days. The other days, I can honestly say that I was having a downward spiral, out of control, slowly but surely killing my relationship with God. And for what? Sin. Sin, as I have come to find out on a personal level, is much more than hurting yourself. It is hurting God. It is selfishness-thinking about what you want instead of what He wants. It is rebellion. It is selfish rebellion contradicting the Word of God. To be quite honest with those that are reading this, this thing has been a long time coming. You see, it got severe the past three days. I had a blow up with my mother. I went back to listening to songs that are ungodly. I chose to lust after someone even though I knew it was wrong. I ignored what God was telling me in order to pursue ungodly things. Hell was a step around the corner. Yet, this thing has been in the making for awhile. Months and months, my relationship with God has faltered. I have drifted apart. I can't blame this person or that incident because in reality the issue was always there. I have just been burying it, pretending that all was well when it was not. Now, things have blown up. This is not something that I nor any Christian can afford to do right now.
People, we are in a stage right now. I like to call it: The Make It or Break It stage. Some of us are going to have a falling out with God, causing us to lose out on eternal life. Some of us are going to persevere until the very end, getting that mansion in heaven. If I keep on with what I have been doing, I'm going to be the one that misses out.
It's not God's fault; it's mine. Although, I did get upset with God, wanting to know why He is allowing me to go through this stage. Why hasn't He given me a husband so that my flesh stops burning? Why isn't He strengthening me to endure these times? Because a husband is not going to help me and it is me that is turning down His help. I can't even blame the lack of husband for any of this. The only one I can blame for this is myself.
B I B L E stands for Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth or so many say. I believe this. I have not been getting in the Word for awhile nor have I've listened. The Lord has been so patient with me, trying to help me through this. Instead, I have been turning my back on Him. I have caused this problem-not Him. It is I that is the problem-NOT Him. It's time for me to stop it-to stop chasing after worldly things. Forget the husband, forget the children, forget what I want, but acknowledge and accept what He wants. I can't be effective if I'm not listening and doing what He wants me to do. Dancing with the Stars is a show that I watch, but it should not be running interference with my study/commune time with the Lord. No show, no event should take away my time with Him. That has been my problem-not wanting to give the Lord time. How can I learn if I'm not listening/paying attention? How can I grow if I'm not accepting the food the Lord is giving me (the food is His Word)? We can't grow. We can't learn if God is the only One in it.
There is a saying: The person is there physically, but not really there. In other words, the person is physically present, but emotionally/mentally not. You can mumble words out of your mouth in your prayer, but you can't hide the fact that you are not in this commune time with the Lord. God knows where we are at mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. He only made us, shaped us, knew us before we were even conceived. We slap our heads, wondering why our prayers aren't being effective. Hello! You are absent from your prayer. You are absent from God. Sure, you are there, but you really are not there.
That's the way I have been. There, but not there. It has to stop. I know now that going through this is allowing me to see the issues that not only I, but others are going through as well. I'm not the only one physically present, but a.w.o.l. spiritually, emotionally, mentally. There are so many Christians that are dropping their guards. We can't afford this.
"Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses," 1 Timothy 6:12. "But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal," Matthew 6:20. We have to fight the good fight, laying hold to eternal life. We have to store up our treasures in heaven not earth. There is nothing down here worth going to hell for. Nothing. Nada. Zilch.
Today, I'm going all in with the Lord. I'm not putting half in neither am I going to be physically there and emotionally/spiritually/mentally away. Every part of me will be talking with the Lord. I want to be a part of those that make it and not break it. Not just this day, but every day.
I encourage all that are still chasing after everything but God to stop this. Chase after God, invest everything in God. I guarantee you that you will increase when you invest with Him.
Until Next Time...Lord's Willing
P.S. "Wherefore comfort yourselves together, and edify one another, even as also ye do," 1 Thessalonians 5:11. Be of comfort to others.
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