If It's Not One Thing...

     I found out officially yesterday that my brother has stage 2 throat cancer. He is going to start chemo. I had to take a breather. I'm sorry, but it's really a shock. My brother is 30 years old. I didn't see that one coming. You know my brother & all of us have typical brother & sister relationships. We argue & sometimes fight but I love him still. It's hard because he can't talk about it. My mom thinks that he is scared. I can't blame him. I am too. I know that the Lord didn't give us a spirit of fear, but I am worried for my brother. The only thing I can do is put everything in God's hands.

    Let's not mention that my blood sugar is doing weird things. Yesterday, it was at 78. After I ate it went up to 103. This morning it was at 58. It could explain why I am so exhausted. It's not depression after all. So that's good. Having said that, I'm going to the doctor soon to see what's up. I pray that it is nothing serious like diabetes or typhoid or low iron. I pray it's just my body trying to tell me that I need to lose weight asap.

     My brothers and sisters in Christ, pray for me. Pray for my family. We need all the prayers that we can get. I love each and everyone of you.

Until Next Time...Lord's Willing

Your Sister in Christ

Mary

Depression Is No Joke

     I believe what I have been going through has been depression. Let me tell you about depression: it definitely is not fun. I have laid in bed for several hours after I got up. I may go back to bed in a few. It's not good to feel this way. I have to hit the Bible big time, seeking the Word of God because I know that, as a child who battled depression, depression does not go away easily. It can suck the life out of you. It really messes you up emotionally and physically. If you have the worse kind, suicidal thoughts start coming in & I DO NOT want to open that door again. 

     I know Satan is working overtime trying to steal, kill, & destroy. We must not give in. I must not give in. With depression, thoughts become messed up. You begin thinking this way and that way. You begin feeling that no one loves you or life is not worth it. I know that has happened with me. I have let the devil work his way back in. It's totally my fault, but it ends right now. I will not be depressed anymore. Satan will not keep me from attending church Sunday mornings nor will I give him power to dominate my mind or my heart. He CAN'T have me! He CAN'T have my family! 

     I encourage each and everyone of you that is going through this, fight back. Embrace the Lord and His Word. Hold on for dear life. The Lord is our Strength! He is our very Help in the time of trouble! He will get us through this. Hold on & hold out. Praise God, Praise His Son, & Praise His Holy Spirit! Thank You Jesus.

Until Next Time...Lord's Willing

Your Sister in Christ

Mary

REMEMBER TO HOLD ON & HOLD OUT!!! SAINTS BE STRONG IN THE LORD!!!

I Wish I Could Say...

     I wish that I could say that I completely love my job or that life is great at my new place. The fact of the matter is that I really want another job outside of dealing with tech support. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the job I have and the position the Lord has given me. However, it seems as though things are not going great.
      I'm so exhausted all the time. I don't know why. I feel so sleepy. Like right now, I feel like going to sleep and will try to in a few. Let's not mention the fact that my friend has not called me or tweeted me or anything else for that matter. She did Facebook me once. I just feel all around horrible. How am I to feel? I feel down. I feel alone. I feel like more bad things have come out of this. Let's add to the fact that in another week I will begin taking calls. So, nervous about this.Yet, I know that the Lord has blessed me with it. I'm going to have to rely 100% on Him for a physical, emotional, & spiritual rejuvenation. Because I definitely need it.
     I'm going to lay down right now. I'm so exhausted it isn't funny. I feel like crying because of all of these things and the fact that I'm physically so spent. So frustrating. Lord help me! My help & strength comes from the Lord!

Happy Tuesday

I hope everyone has a happy Tuesday. I encourage all to read the the Lord's Prayer every morning. This is the Lord's Prayer:

Matthew 6:9-13

King James Version (KJV)

⁹ After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.
¹⁰ Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.
¹¹ Give us this day our daily bread.
¹² And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
¹³ And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.

Until Next Time...Lord's Willing

Your Sister in Christ

Mary

Matthew 11:28-30

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Just Give Me Jesus

     I've been going through some things. It's not easy. I miss my former coworkers and friends. I miss talking with my friend from church and work. I feel horrible sometimes & lonely. Yet, I know that the Lord has blessed me tremendously. I'm thankful for what He has given me. I really am, but I do miss the important people in my life.

     I've been attached to this song that I'm going to post in a few. It's called Give Me Jesus by Jeremy Camp. It's so right on. The repeated, stand out verse for me is this: you can have all this world, just give me Jesus. That's so true. I shouldn't nor do I care about the things of this world. My new job doesn't fulfill me. My new apartment doesn't fulfill me. Making new friends and acquaintances doesn't fulfill. Just Jesus fulfills me. He is always there. I have to start leaning more and more on Him & not anyone or myself. When I do, I know that He can take away the loneliness. And now without further ado, the song that I love.

Until Next Time...Lord's Willing

When you find that all you need is Jesus, things will become easier.

Your Sister in Christ,

Mary

Under The Weather

I'm not one that usually gets sick. The Lord has blessed me in this department. When I do feel down, I'm usually battling my sinuses. This morning, I was way, way under the weather and had checked in at my bathroom. I had abdominal pains. I was on the toilet. My face was in the toilet. It was horrible. I couldn't go back to sleep. I was praying to the Lord in terrible pain. He answered my prayers as I don't feel as bad as I did at 5:40 something in the morning.


I had woken up some where at this time with sharp abdominal pains. I went to the bathroom. It was coming out. I still felt no relief. So, I began throwing up. I felt a tiny amount of relief. I was crying. Let's not mention the fact that I had the egg burps and it's that time of the month. Lord knows I'm in enough pain when it's that time of the month, but to add this to it was just bad. For some reason as well, with this virus, I'm bleeding heavy. It's been so heavy, it's been going everywhere on the toilet and myself. Disgusting! 


I know this is graphic, but this stomach virus was definitely no joke. I missed church! Aflac has the commercial that it doesn't hurt to miss work. In this case, it does hurt to miss church. I wanted to be there. I knew I would be sleepy because I was still up at 12:00 am & I live about an hour away, but still...


Thank God for parents that care. My dad and mom went & got me some feminine products, ibuprofen, and some soup and juices. My mom had made me tomato soup and has helped me with cleaning my clothes and blankets. I so appreciate it.

To God Be The Glory

Until Next Time..Lord's Willing

Your Sister in Christ,

Mary